【愛着と手放すこと】

怒涛の年度末！

講師業の「ラストレッスン」が連発です。

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以前の私はとても感情移入が強くて

「この生徒さんたちに

　もう会えないかもしれないなんて～😥」

みたいな衝撃をいちいち受けていました。

特に保育園でのレッスン、

年少さん＆年中さん。

卒園に心踊らせている年長さんは笑顔で送りだせても

慕ってくれてる子どもたちにお別れを言うのが

想像もできないほどとても悲しかったり。

でも、何年前でしょうか、

「愛着」や「愛情」と思っていたもの

でもそれは単なる私の「執着」なんだと知ってからは

笑顔で心から応援できるようになりました。

はい、もっと深刻な別れを経験してからは。

「笑顔でサヨナラ✨」

実際、現場の先生方にもたくさんお会いして

本当にプロフェッショナルでいらっしゃって

子どもたちに本当に必要なこと

を追求していたら

講師がそんな「執着」に固執していたら

もったいないということが分かります。

私の3月はずっと

「ラストレッスン」が続きます。

会えなくなるかもしれない人がこれからも。

でもいつかまたどこかで❣️